Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you,Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 I can recall a day about ten years ago...just like it was yesterday. The details are so vivid in my mind, but I am grateful for the details because they allow me to recall and be grateful for that day. The day I am speaking about, is the day that I knew that I had hit the ultimate level of brokenness. This type of brokenness can either push you to God or away from Him. I had traveled the road of moving away from God and I found myself back to a place of brokenness. Have you been on that road….do you remember how you got on that road? The place was a park...near some water and I was sitting on a bench. I had finally retrieved a book that was given to me off the shelf and I decided to read it. I had no idea that while reading this book. God would show up and meet me in my broken place. As the tears filled my eyes,and the shame and hurt tried to consume my thoughts….there was this explosion of comfort, to this day I can’t fully describe. I knew I wasn’t alone anymore. The grace and compassion that I felt in that moment, brought me to my knees right there at the bench in the park. I was spiraling in my brokenness and God came and engulfed me in His presence...Fear not, for I am with you. I immediately felt a different type of peace, unlike anything I could comprehend. Have you felt the peace of God that I am describing? Were you able to bask in His peace? Were you overwhelmed in His presence? I knew God was there and He was there because He knew I needed Him in a way that I couldn’t explain or ask for. Have you been in a place where the words wouldn’t form? What you desired to say just couldn’t be articulated. That day I surrendered to God for the first time...I was saved, but I had never surrendered my full will to God....Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I felt an infusion of strength and energy come through my body. I confessed all my sins and repented to God. I made some promises to Him that day.I told God I was tired trying to live my life my way. That my way came with unnecessary challenges that I allowed because of my disobedience…. I will strengthen you,Yes, I will help you. My life has never been the same since that day. It took a place of brokenness to push me into a place of surrendrance. The awesome part was that God was right there. He met me where I was. He knew I was broken but He was there to repair my brokenness and make me whole again for Him. He already knew the plans He had for my life and now I can see that my brokenness was necessary for His purpose to be complete in me….I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Be Encouraged, Shaneen |
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